1 00:00:32,800 --> 00:00:42,130 School of Senses 2 00:02:17,800 --> 00:02:22,800 l, Lili Csokonai made my entry into this world in the nineteen and seventy-fifth year of Our Lord, 3 00:02:29,120 --> 00:02:35,810 on the seventeenth of September, at dawn of day, in the grey lowlands of Csepel, 4 00:02:36,040 --> 00:02:41,206 and has remained faithfully faithless in the true Roman religion ever since 5 00:02:41,440 --> 00:02:43,681 and will remain so forever. 6 00:02:49,000 --> 00:02:54,325 My blessed mother, Mistress Kata Vérdai was summoned to a better life by God 7 00:02:54,560 --> 00:02:57,643 at the very same hour of my birth, 8 00:02:58,000 --> 00:03:04,531 and this brands me as her murderer, though I am innocent of intent and will in this matter. 9 00:03:05,800 --> 00:03:11,489 My loving father, Master Péter Csokonai gave up his ghost also on the same 10 00:03:11,720 --> 00:03:18,330 seventeenth day of the month of Saint Michael, anno domini nineteen and seventy-nine. 11 00:03:18,560 --> 00:03:26,604 In the thirty-fifth year of his sojourn in this world he fell the tree of his life with his own hand 12 00:03:26,840 --> 00:03:34,691 in bitter sorrow, for which may his lot be the eternal light of that next world of the blessed. 13 00:03:42,800 --> 00:03:49,684 Previous to that day, I had seen just four springs, four summers, autumns and winters. 14 00:03:49,920 --> 00:03:55,484 From then on I have always had to resort to the crutches of dissimulation. 15 00:03:55,720 --> 00:03:59,884 My life as an orphan made me into the semblance of slow waters, 16 00:04:00,120 --> 00:04:04,011 out of which I surfaced only after fourteen great floods. 17 00:04:50,000 --> 00:04:53,800 I 'd rather live in Brazil because life is good there. 18 00:04:54,800 --> 00:04:57,007 Fancy a drop of the hard stuff'? 19 00:04:57,240 --> 00:04:58,480 I'd prefer tea. 20 00:05:00,000 --> 00:05:02,241 The Brazilians are all mad. 21 00:05:08,200 --> 00:05:14,810 It was in the spring of the year nineteen and ninety-five when I met my husband, 22 00:05:19,280 --> 00:05:22,807 Mérton Kéri, my loving man. 23 00:05:23,080 --> 00:05:30,567 Yes. And you said in your talk that in the USA fibre-optics cables are now being laid faster 24 00:05:30,800 --> 00:05:34,930 than the speed of sound. lsn't this an exaggeration'? 25 00:05:35,160 --> 00:05:38,323 No. On the contrary... I calculated the speed myself. 26 00:05:38,560 --> 00:05:41,962 And how did you do it? On the basis of specialist literature'? 27 00:05:42,040 --> 00:05:47,001 Yes, of course. All I had to do was to divide the length of the cables laid by 28 00:05:47,080 --> 00:05:50,482 the annual number of seconds and the resulting figure... 29 00:05:50,560 --> 00:05:52,403 Let's stop for a moment. 30 00:05:57,800 --> 00:06:03,921 This was the first moment of our shared history and by this moment fatet urned 31 00:06:04,160 --> 00:06:06,083 both of us into new beings. 32 00:06:13,200 --> 00:06:15,202 Why are they mad? 33 00:06:18,800 --> 00:06:23,408 Brazilians? Because they live in the South. 34 00:06:23,640 --> 00:06:25,483 Just like yourself. 35 00:06:26,000 --> 00:06:27,889 I'm a Greek. 36 00:06:33,240 --> 00:06:37,404 Only Southern people like God truly. 37 00:06:37,800 --> 00:06:46,003 People in the North want to be loved by God. 38 00:06:47,800 --> 00:06:51,646 And this is the trouble with them. 39 00:06:57,000 --> 00:07:01,562 They said it on the radio that we are going to have another heatwave. 40 00:07:01,640 --> 00:07:04,803 Well, people here don't know a thing about heat! 41 00:07:05,160 --> 00:07:09,085 Forty degrees in the shadow: thafs real heat! 42 00:07:14,400 --> 00:07:16,687 Okay, I'm bringing you some tea. 43 00:07:24,000 --> 00:07:27,482 There is always a favourite song, and then the same song again and again. 44 00:07:27,560 --> 00:07:31,565 I watch the night turning into day, the landscape becoming visible. Pure magic. 45 00:07:31,640 --> 00:07:33,483 Do you know what I mean, Lili dear'? 46 00:07:33,560 --> 00:07:34,322 Humming-top! 47 00:07:35,000 --> 00:07:38,129 What? What humming-top'? 48 00:07:38,400 --> 00:07:40,004 You always ride it easy. 49 00:07:40,080 --> 00:07:41,002 Why? 50 00:07:41,080 --> 00:07:43,651 Because you have friends everywhere. 51 00:07:43,720 --> 00:07:45,927 You have a flat of your own. 52 00:07:46,000 --> 00:07:47,047 You have a wife! 53 00:07:47,400 --> 00:07:50,563 What of it'? Everybody has a wife. 54 00:07:50,800 --> 00:07:52,882 Then leave me alone, will you'? 55 00:07:55,800 --> 00:07:57,802 Go to hell! 56 00:08:22,240 --> 00:08:24,083 I don't want any of this! 57 00:08:24,320 --> 00:08:26,322 Of course you do! 58 00:08:40,600 --> 00:08:42,011 You idiot! 59 00:08:42,600 --> 00:08:46,286 - And then he looked at me and said could I bring him a clothesbrush? 60 00:08:46,360 --> 00:08:47,043 ~ And? 61 00:08:47,440 --> 00:08:49,602 - And I looked him into the eye and said l'll get it in a sec. 62 00:08:49,680 --> 00:08:51,170 - And? - I got it for him. 63 00:08:51,240 --> 00:08:52,924 - And did anything happen? 64 00:08:53,000 --> 00:08:54,206 - Nothing, really. 65 00:08:54,440 --> 00:08:57,011 - Then what makes you think he fancies you? 66 00:08:57,080 --> 00:08:59,401 - This is something you simply feel. 67 00:08:59,480 --> 00:09:01,005 - You can't be such an idiot! 68 00:09:16,400 --> 00:09:17,811 Ifs only a toy gun! 69 00:09:33,000 --> 00:09:35,207 I'm a virgin still. 70 00:09:38,800 --> 00:09:42,122 Ultimately everybody is a virgin, don't you think so'? 71 00:09:46,280 --> 00:09:49,727 Because I refused to let an alien body enter mine. 72 00:09:50,720 --> 00:09:58,411 And one thing is certain: without exception, everybody is an alien to you. 73 00:10:31,600 --> 00:10:39,200 As there was no love in my heart I had no idea whether I was beautiful or not. 74 00:11:22,200 --> 00:11:23,440 L'll be back soon. 75 00:11:45,600 --> 00:11:47,807 Oh, stop this racket, will you? 76 00:11:48,000 --> 00:11:49,490 I'm leaving now. 77 00:11:49,800 --> 00:11:52,644 When will you be back? 78 00:11:53,000 --> 00:11:55,002 Never. 79 00:11:57,000 --> 00:11:59,002 That's good. 80 00:12:22,600 --> 00:12:26,605 - Whafs happening? - lsn't she coming back? 81 00:12:47,600 --> 00:12:56,850 I started writing this a good quarter of a year ago. 82 00:12:57,400 --> 00:13:02,400 Whether my writing is trendy or outdated, I have no fear of confessing. 83 00:13:10,000 --> 00:13:14,210 Words are my sturdiest support... 84 00:17:14,000 --> 00:17:23,011 A shawl threaded with silver. The way the coolness of the evening wrapped around us. 85 00:17:24,200 --> 00:17:29,366 By then, I was a woman. I felt content and languid. 86 00:17:29,600 --> 00:17:33,844 We were like one body, like the body of my own body. 87 00:17:34,000 --> 00:17:41,248 I pressed the beautifully delicate hand of my lord and husband to my own body. 88 00:17:45,000 --> 00:17:48,607 Mist had cleared from the lake. 89 00:17:48,800 --> 00:17:54,728 There were swans on the water. We counted seventeen of them. 90 00:17:55,000 --> 00:18:01,007 A prime number, Kéri said. And what is a prime number'? 91 00:18:01,400 --> 00:18:06,400 A number that can be devided only by itself and by one. 92 00:18:14,000 --> 00:18:17,163 The only thing that matters, Kéri added, 93 00:18:17,400 --> 00:18:22,406 is the thoughts one has in the last five minutes before one falls asleep. 94 00:18:23,000 --> 00:18:28,609 Five is also a prime number, I remarked, after some weak cogitation. 95 00:18:28,840 --> 00:18:33,482 And I thought five being a prime number was a good sign. 96 00:18:49,800 --> 00:18:52,246 What is it now, Naxos'? 97 00:18:53,400 --> 00:19:00,602 Dinnertime. I can tell the woman to prepare a meal if you want something to eat. 98 00:19:01,000 --> 00:19:02,843 I want nothing to eat. 99 00:19:04,600 --> 00:19:06,602 Can I bring it now'? 100 00:21:05,000 --> 00:21:07,002 Did you like it'? 101 00:21:09,000 --> 00:21:12,322 Afterwards it always feel bad and cold. 102 00:21:12,800 --> 00:21:14,802 Whafs wrong with that'? 103 00:21:15,800 --> 00:21:18,406 Nothing is wrong with that. 104 00:21:20,000 --> 00:21:28,090 Except I can't take a bath on my own. This is the only thing that's is wrong. 105 00:21:28,400 --> 00:21:35,921 Tomorrow, Lili dear, tomorrow. 106 00:22:46,200 --> 00:22:48,202 Naxos, your bloody whore! 107 00:23:05,400 --> 00:23:07,084 Whafs wrong, Lili dear'? 108 00:23:07,400 --> 00:23:11,007 You've forgotten about it. About the chair. 109 00:23:19,600 --> 00:23:28,361 Okay, what shall I get for you, Lili darling? 110 00:23:34,000 --> 00:23:38,164 Yes, this is not a unique piece, other people have something like it, but it is silver! 111 00:23:38,400 --> 00:23:39,401 Is it your birthday today? 112 00:23:43,600 --> 00:23:47,605 This is something, isn't it'? I'm fifty-two. 113 00:23:47,840 --> 00:23:52,209 And this is the first silver cigarette case l've ever had. 114 00:23:54,200 --> 00:24:00,207 I find mornings very hard to bear these days. I drink far too much of the hard stuff. 115 00:24:02,280 --> 00:24:06,683 It's a present from my wife. She is a good woman. 116 00:24:07,000 --> 00:24:11,688 I think of God all the time. He should think of me one of these days. 117 00:24:11,840 --> 00:24:15,640 She is a very good woman. Yesterday she wanted to go to the beauty parlour and 118 00:24:15,720 --> 00:24:17,529 get the hair on her leg removed. I didn't let her do it. 119 00:24:22,000 --> 00:24:27,006 I like hair. Hairy legs, that is. 120 00:26:23,800 --> 00:26:27,600 Ifs only for two days! You must understand! 121 00:26:29,000 --> 00:26:30,001 I don't want to understand it! 122 00:26:31,000 --> 00:26:33,002 You know howl hate scandal. 123 00:26:33,240 --> 00:26:36,767 I don't want to understand it! 124 00:26:37,800 --> 00:26:39,882 It's only two days, okay? 125 00:26:47,400 --> 00:26:49,402 I don't want to understand it! 126 00:26:49,640 --> 00:26:52,723 Where is my jacket'? Give it back to me, please. 127 00:26:53,000 --> 00:26:57,005 I don't want to understand it! I don't want to understand it! 128 00:26:58,000 --> 00:26:59,923 Give it back, will you? 129 00:27:00,400 --> 00:27:05,406 I don't want to understand it! I don't want to understand it! 130 00:27:06,000 --> 00:27:08,241 Give it back! Give it back! 131 00:27:12,000 --> 00:27:14,401 I don't want to understand... 132 00:27:30,000 --> 00:27:35,166 ...lt's me. Listen, you go and register as tenant of the flat right away... 133 00:27:35,400 --> 00:27:39,485 He gave reason for suspicion when he departed and was gone for two days to 134 00:27:39,720 --> 00:27:41,404 put in an appearance at home! 135 00:27:42,000 --> 00:27:47,803 From one woman he went to another. Why is the man I love is so prudent in everything'? 136 00:27:48,000 --> 00:27:53,530 Why should he care so much for his happiness, why should he record every moment of his life 137 00:27:53,800 --> 00:27:55,086 with such obsessive care'? 138 00:27:55,400 --> 00:27:58,006 Why did he put on this act of fooling when he left'? 139 00:27:58,240 --> 00:28:02,643 Why did he say I should behave myself, and make sure I don't go astray while he is absent'? 140 00:28:53,600 --> 00:28:55,011 Hello! 141 00:29:02,600 --> 00:29:05,444 Actually, I asked her to take care of you. 142 00:29:05,680 --> 00:29:06,681 And who is taking care of you? 143 00:29:13,000 --> 00:29:19,804 She was about forty. Her three children were all violinists. 144 00:29:21,000 --> 00:29:24,641 Her husband was a ski instructor, away on business. 145 00:29:24,840 --> 00:29:29,243 Oh, we had a laugh about that, about a ski instructor being away on business 146 00:29:29,480 --> 00:29:31,801 in the heat of the month of May... 147 00:29:32,400 --> 00:29:36,803 May is the month that tempts you with love. 148 00:29:39,000 --> 00:29:41,002 So is April. 149 00:29:58,000 --> 00:30:00,651 VWII you be my snowplough in May? 150 00:30:06,400 --> 00:30:07,561 Here's to love! 151 00:30:08,600 --> 00:30:09,601 To love! 152 00:30:28,600 --> 00:30:30,489 How beautiful hands you have! 153 00:30:30,720 --> 00:30:31,721 My hands? 154 00:30:32,400 --> 00:30:36,246 Hasn't anybody ever told you that? 155 00:30:37,000 --> 00:30:38,331 Are they really? 156 00:30:38,800 --> 00:30:40,245 Show your hand to me! 157 00:30:45,400 --> 00:30:52,204 Wonderful! Your nails, your fingers! 158 00:30:52,800 --> 00:31:02,005 Wait, wait! How long it is! And your skin! Wonderful! 159 00:31:02,240 --> 00:31:08,009 It's so nice you're saying these things! So my hands are beautiful. 160 00:31:08,240 --> 00:31:13,246 Let me see your hand now! Oh, yours is beautiful, too! 161 00:31:15,000 --> 00:31:17,207 How soft and warm your palm is! 162 00:31:46,600 --> 00:31:49,126 Lefs have a swim. 163 00:31:55,400 --> 00:32:01,407 I dread the thought of waiting. I like the present, I fear the future. 164 00:32:02,000 --> 00:32:10,408 Even if I will like it as present when I get there having no choice in the matter. 165 00:32:19,400 --> 00:32:24,008 She was walking ahead of me, her head lowered deep. 166 00:32:24,400 --> 00:32:27,324 I found both of these things irritating. 167 00:34:59,000 --> 00:35:01,002 Lili! 168 00:35:03,400 --> 00:35:08,930 Lili! I wrote down my phone number here... 169 00:35:10,000 --> 00:35:12,367 VWII you phone me'? 170 00:35:16,000 --> 00:35:18,002 Thank you. 171 00:37:00,400 --> 00:37:03,324 How can you stop the car like this? 172 00:37:03,600 --> 00:37:05,921 Don't shout at me like this! 173 00:37:06,200 --> 00:37:09,204 Don'shake your fist at me like this! 174 00:37:09,480 --> 00:37:11,482 Of course I knew that... 175 00:37:13,800 --> 00:37:15,484 Come on, Lili, come! 176 00:37:23,800 --> 00:37:26,804 Is this where we're going to live together'? 177 00:37:30,400 --> 00:37:31,731 Congratulations! 178 00:37:32,000 --> 00:37:33,001 What for'? 179 00:37:34,000 --> 00:37:35,240 For getting Marci. 180 00:37:35,480 --> 00:37:36,402 Oh, for that. 181 00:37:38,600 --> 00:37:40,409 He told me it was over two months ago. 182 00:37:40,480 --> 00:37:43,484 Only I haven't been able to move out so far. But it's definitely over. 183 00:37:43,560 --> 00:37:44,641 Hey, who is she? 184 00:37:51,000 --> 00:37:54,800 It doesn't matter. You know he is married, don't you'? 185 00:37:54,880 --> 00:37:57,565 Yes, I do. Why, do you know her? 186 00:37:58,080 --> 00:37:59,081 Yep. 187 00:37:59,160 --> 00:38:01,925 Whafs she like? ls she a blonde? 188 00:38:02,080 --> 00:38:03,650 Yes. A gorgeous blonde. 189 00:38:03,720 --> 00:38:04,721 Great. 190 00:38:05,000 --> 00:38:10,166 I still have to find a new guy I can move in with. I'd stay here till then. 191 00:38:28,000 --> 00:38:30,924 For me, there was no way of loving Mari. 192 00:38:31,200 --> 00:38:36,604 She was like a mirror, and it was myself I loved in its reflexion. 193 00:38:37,000 --> 00:38:44,407 As she never made me jealuos or envious of her I was able to think of myself tenderly. 194 00:38:45,800 --> 00:38:50,328 She sold pieces of her attire to me for almost nothing; 195 00:38:51,000 --> 00:38:56,211 pieces she may well have been given by Keri. 196 00:39:02,800 --> 00:39:06,964 I'm going to sing the vocal because it needs a higher voice. 197 00:39:07,800 --> 00:39:11,805 Because it's never been nice... 198 00:39:12,000 --> 00:39:13,525 Because it's never been nice! 199 00:39:13,600 --> 00:39:15,602 Because it's never been enough! 200 00:39:15,800 --> 00:39:17,211 Because it's never been enough. 201 00:39:17,400 --> 00:39:19,323 Because it's always been hurting... 202 00:39:19,600 --> 00:39:20,840 Because it's always... 203 00:39:21,000 --> 00:39:22,684 ...always been hurting... 204 00:39:22,880 --> 00:39:25,486 ...And you've never been around for long... 205 00:39:25,600 --> 00:39:27,682 ...You should put the safety belt on. 206 00:39:27,800 --> 00:39:28,608 Oh, leave me alone! 207 00:39:29,600 --> 00:39:32,001 Now the next bit. Because it's never been nice... 208 00:39:32,400 --> 00:39:33,208 Click! Click! 209 00:39:33,400 --> 00:39:35,004 Because it's never been nice. 210 00:39:35,200 --> 00:39:36,281 Click! Click! 211 00:39:36,400 --> 00:39:38,402 Because it's never been enough! 212 00:39:38,800 --> 00:39:40,768 Now let's have it all over again! 213 00:39:41,000 --> 00:39:45,801 Because it's never been nice. Because it's never been enough. Click! Click! 214 00:39:47,000 --> 00:39:49,765 Because it's always been hurting. Click! Click! 215 00:39:49,880 --> 00:39:53,248 And you've never been around for long... 216 00:40:06,000 --> 00:40:12,167 I liked working. I knew everything about dirt, its nature, its slow spread. 217 00:40:12,400 --> 00:40:16,644 And I waged an angry war of total destruction on it. 218 00:40:16,800 --> 00:40:24,048 And when I saw the retreat of dirt, I had this vision of order visited upon me, thinking 219 00:40:27,000 --> 00:40:35,681 that due to my efforts the Kingdom of God has gained some foothold in this world. 220 00:41:53,600 --> 00:41:54,089 Something wrong, dear? 221 00:41:54,320 --> 00:41:54,604 Something wrong? 222 00:41:55,000 --> 00:41:58,004 Yes, something is wrong. 223 00:42:09,800 --> 00:42:14,966 The in thing today is the World VWde Web, this electronic cobweb around the globe, 224 00:42:15,200 --> 00:42:18,488 which is the most expensive service of the Internet. 225 00:42:18,560 --> 00:42:21,564 They are spending millions on it 226 00:42:22,600 --> 00:42:25,888 Hello, Lili! l've some big news. I'm moving out. 227 00:42:26,000 --> 00:42:28,321 Please please take me there! 228 00:42:29,000 --> 00:42:29,922 Are you going now'? 229 00:42:30,160 --> 00:42:33,209 You could stay and help with the packing. I'm leaving early in the morning. 230 00:42:33,280 --> 00:42:36,841 - I'll go and see him! Go to where? - You don't now where he lives. 231 00:42:36,920 --> 00:42:38,365 But you do, don't you'? 232 00:42:38,480 --> 00:42:42,405 I'm going to Vienna. Who knows, the guy might marry me. 233 00:42:42,480 --> 00:42:44,608 Don't you want to know who he is? 234 00:42:44,680 --> 00:42:46,887 - Lefs get moving! Come! - What for? 235 00:43:02,000 --> 00:43:07,643 Throw it in! Go ahead and throw it in! Thafs it. 236 00:44:05,400 --> 00:44:10,611 I got this one also from him. Want it'? 237 00:44:12,000 --> 00:44:13,764 I'm in love with him. 238 00:44:14,000 --> 00:44:17,607 Congratulations. I'm no longer in love with him. 239 00:44:18,000 --> 00:44:19,411 He loves me, too. 240 00:44:20,000 --> 00:44:21,809 Did he tell you he loved you'? 241 00:44:21,880 --> 00:44:22,881 Yes, he did. 242 00:44:23,000 --> 00:44:26,322 He never told me he was in love with me. 243 00:44:30,400 --> 00:44:32,641 Does he love his wife, too'? 244 00:46:34,000 --> 00:46:36,002 You're really beautiful. 245 00:46:38,000 --> 00:46:39,001 What of it'? 246 00:46:39,800 --> 00:46:41,802 I'm going to steal him from you. 247 00:46:41,880 --> 00:46:44,360 As a matter of fact, l've already had. Do you know this? 248 00:46:44,400 --> 00:46:45,447 What do you want'? 249 00:46:45,480 --> 00:46:49,201 You'd better stop pretending you don't understand what it's all about. 250 00:46:49,240 --> 00:46:50,241 Are you mad? 251 00:46:50,320 --> 00:46:52,084 I'm pregnant with Mérton's child. 252 00:46:52,120 --> 00:46:54,964 We're going to have a baby. A wonderful baby... 253 00:46:59,000 --> 00:47:05,326 The Saturday issue of the advertisement paper “Express" appeared in a format smaller than 254 00:47:05,400 --> 00:47:08,404 usual because the designer of the software, 255 00:47:08,480 --> 00:47:12,201 paper uses halted the program by phoning in a coded instruction. 256 00:47:12,280 --> 00:47:15,284 We managed to reach Mr. Mérton Kéri, the general manager of the company that 257 00:47:15,360 --> 00:47:17,806 designed the program, here in the concert hall of the Academy of Music, 258 00:47:17,880 --> 00:47:20,281 where as the chief sponsor of a concert of electronic music... 259 00:47:20,360 --> 00:47:22,328 Excuse me. As the sole sponsor of the concert... 260 00:47:22,400 --> 00:47:24,402 Yes. Sorry. As the sole sponsor of the concert... 261 00:47:24,480 --> 00:47:28,485 I'm happy to announce that the conductor of the concert tonight will be a computer or, rather, 262 00:47:28,560 --> 00:47:32,565 our software that is running on the computer here. The software, though we had some 263 00:47:32,640 --> 00:47:35,803 assistance from the USA in designing it, is the result of a long process of 264 00:47:35,880 --> 00:47:37,769 Yes, but my question is about something else. 265 00:47:37,800 --> 00:47:40,565 Do you think that halting the computer was perfectly legal, an act within the law? 266 00:47:40,640 --> 00:47:46,249 Look, as the general manager of Computer Technology Limited I can assure that... 267 00:47:49,400 --> 00:47:53,405 I'm pregnant! Do you hear'? We're going to have a child! I love you, Mérton! I love you! 268 00:47:53,480 --> 00:47:55,801 Sorry about that. Secondly, as a matter of fact... 269 00:47:55,880 --> 00:47:57,450 This woman is stark raving mad! 270 00:47:57,520 --> 00:48:01,320 We must tell everybody that we love each other and we're going to have a wonderful baby! 271 00:48:01,400 --> 00:48:03,004 I don't even know this woman. 272 00:48:03,080 --> 00:48:06,163 Secondly, as a matter of fact we announced that... 273 00:48:58,000 --> 00:49:00,082 Get the hell out of here! 274 00:49:00,800 --> 00:49:02,325 I want to be here. 275 00:49:03,000 --> 00:49:06,163 I told you to get out of here. ls that clear'? 276 00:49:06,240 --> 00:49:10,848 Okay, get moving! I'll drop in and talk things over in a day or two. Get moving! 277 00:49:11,000 --> 00:49:12,126 I dont want to go. 278 00:49:12,200 --> 00:49:17,127 For Chrissake, what is it you want then'? You're driving me mad! 279 00:49:20,000 --> 00:49:24,005 ...which is a component of the motherboard of every DX 2-system computer. 280 00:49:24,200 --> 00:49:26,441 Sincerely yours, signature, etcetera... 281 00:49:27,000 --> 00:49:31,050 Could you call back when you're ready? 282 00:49:32,000 --> 00:49:33,081 Fine. Thanks. 283 00:49:47,000 --> 00:49:50,527 You know you will have to have an abortion, donft you? 284 00:49:52,800 --> 00:49:54,211 I love you! 285 00:49:55,000 --> 00:49:57,844 Is... is it okay then'? 286 00:49:58,000 --> 00:49:59,001 I love you! 287 00:49:59,400 --> 00:50:01,641 Listen, l'll take care of everything... 288 00:50:03,000 --> 00:50:07,085 l'd like to give birth to a child. To give birth to a child of yours! 289 00:50:08,000 --> 00:50:10,526 Sorry, but this is impossible. 290 00:50:12,000 --> 00:50:13,001 No way. 291 00:50:15,200 --> 00:50:16,804 For God's sake, no! 292 00:50:23,400 --> 00:50:25,721 Get it into your head, will you! No way. 293 00:51:16,000 --> 00:51:20,164 Whether in the body or in the soul, I feel nothing. 294 00:51:21,600 --> 00:51:23,523 A little pain, perhaps. 295 00:51:26,000 --> 00:51:31,006 And the impropriety that other persons rummaged in my inside. 296 00:51:31,800 --> 00:51:34,565 It was only a quick snip, though. 297 00:51:35,000 --> 00:51:39,927 As if people had been playing some silly new game of snip-snip-snip in there... 298 00:51:40,000 --> 00:51:41,161 Who were they? 299 00:51:41,400 --> 00:51:45,121 And who am I? Who? 300 00:51:45,400 --> 00:51:48,483 A puny master of life and death! 301 00:54:10,000 --> 00:54:17,088 I'm not holding it against you but it pains me to no end 302 00:54:18,000 --> 00:54:25,407 that I cannot love you the way I could and would. 303 00:54:29,000 --> 00:54:36,248 Yes, Oh, my poor man, poor Master Kéri! 304 00:54:37,240 --> 00:54:40,562 Oh, my waning love, oh, my fickle lover! 305 00:54:53,000 --> 00:54:57,244 A black beast is sneezing in its dark velvet. 306 00:54:58,240 --> 00:55:02,165 A black box is galloping across the alien land. 307 00:55:02,600 --> 00:55:06,650 It's the first time I travel in a carriage that is for sleepers. 308 00:55:07,000 --> 00:55:13,770 We are three. We jolt, we rock, we fidget. 309 00:55:15,000 --> 00:55:18,209 A wakeful pipe dream, rotten rest. 310 00:55:21,240 --> 00:55:29,807 And then, after some noise, a hand cusps my buttocks, explores them, then 311 00:55:30,400 --> 00:55:38,410 it takes off to visit other parts, pries the hem of my damp knickers away from my flesh, 312 00:55:39,000 --> 00:55:44,404 but spends only a breath of time in there as if it were only checking. 313 00:55:45,000 --> 00:55:53,169 I feel half sorry for the owner of the hand, a weak creature, dead tired... 314 00:56:21,000 --> 00:56:26,928 In the morning I take a look at my travel companions, at the man and the woman. 315 00:56:29,000 --> 00:56:32,925 Which of the two did it'? I look at their hands. 316 00:56:34,800 --> 00:56:44,482 They're both polite persons with quiet good manners. I have only one body. 317 00:57:51,400 --> 00:57:54,006 Do you realise how awful you look this way? 318 00:57:54,080 --> 00:57:55,923 I thought I looked great. Don't I? 319 00:57:56,000 --> 00:57:57,331 You don't. What is this for'? 320 00:57:57,400 --> 00:57:59,129 It's because you like blondes. 321 00:58:00,000 --> 00:58:02,002 You must be out of your mind! 322 00:58:02,800 --> 00:58:07,124 Why'? Your wife was a blonde, Mari is a blonde... 323 00:58:08,000 --> 00:58:10,970 You're driving me mad! Okay, let's go. 324 00:58:20,400 --> 00:58:25,406 You sit here and wait till I'm back. 325 00:58:28,000 --> 00:58:30,002 When will you be back? 326 00:58:30,400 --> 00:58:31,731 Sooner or later. 327 00:59:05,000 --> 00:59:11,007 Excuse me. Where is the lady's? The toilet? 328 00:59:11,400 --> 00:59:13,164 Par Ia, mademoiselle! 329 00:59:38,280 --> 00:59:46,006 I go to the female section. I lift it up, I pull it down, I sit. lwait. 330 00:59:47,360 --> 00:59:51,888 The outer door opens. I hear somebody breathing. 331 00:59:52,800 --> 00:59:53,881 Then silence. 332 00:59:55,000 --> 01:00:01,087 In my head I stage what I'm going to go through, guessing where lwould put my leg up, 333 01:00:01,160 --> 01:00:05,324 which corner of the wall I would lean against or get a hold on. 334 01:00:05,600 --> 01:00:10,527 It'll be a wonderful experience, I say to myself grinning at the tiles of the floor. 335 01:00:10,600 --> 01:00:12,602 Black, white, black, white, yes, yes! 336 01:00:12,800 --> 01:00:19,809 At this very moment a sudden bursting of dams: blood starts flowing out of my inside, 337 01:00:20,000 --> 01:00:29,603 clots of blood the size of walnuts. That's what I am, those dark clotted chunks of blood. 338 01:00:30,600 --> 01:00:34,207 My monthly curse arrived in time, when it had to. 339 01:00:35,000 --> 01:00:39,801 What a piece of bad luck that I have only one body! 340 01:00:58,000 --> 01:01:01,846 Look, you should have told me it was the wrong time. Not because you... 341 01:01:02,200 --> 01:01:03,406 Why? You didn't mind. 342 01:01:03,480 --> 01:01:07,087 I do now. Get it'? What would the hotel people say if we bloodied the sheets? Eh'? 343 01:01:07,160 --> 01:01:08,400 Who cares about them? 344 01:01:08,480 --> 01:01:13,008 What'? Look, I do care. You know I... I always stay here. I work here, you know. 345 01:01:13,080 --> 01:01:15,082 And this matters a great deal to me. 346 01:01:15,160 --> 01:01:17,686 All right. Let's go out, buy me a present. 347 01:01:17,720 --> 01:01:20,963 Lefs do some shopping or go for a walk, but let's do something. 348 01:01:22,200 --> 01:01:24,407 Go fuck your club-footed auntie in Siberia! 349 01:01:24,480 --> 01:01:26,687 Have some fun with her instead of bothering me! 350 01:01:26,760 --> 01:01:29,445 Or with your boiler-suited, smelly-footed father! 351 01:01:29,520 --> 01:01:30,521 Koniets! 352 01:01:59,200 --> 01:02:01,567 My husband won't be back till Tuesday. 353 01:02:01,800 --> 01:02:03,484 Skiing again? 354 01:02:04,000 --> 01:02:09,404 Yes. Something like that. VWII you really come'? 355 01:02:10,000 --> 01:02:12,810 Yes. My whole weekend is free. 356 01:02:39,000 --> 01:02:48,921 While on the way there, I imagine every word, every movement, every person involved, 357 01:02:49,120 --> 01:02:54,120 myself and her. What is going to happen? VWI it be good or bad'? 358 01:03:01,400 --> 01:03:09,410 When and where is the limit? How about strangling her'? Making her suffocate to death'? 359 01:03:10,800 --> 01:03:19,129 In the thicket of acacia the corpse was found with her severed sexual organ in his mouth. 360 01:03:24,600 --> 01:03:32,121 Cause of death: suffocation. Shee took my secret and shame with herself. 361 01:03:40,800 --> 01:03:47,490 I must take my knickers off. Standing on one foot, I'm trying to keep my balance. 362 01:03:48,400 --> 01:03:53,804 I take hold of her shoulder. She puts my knickers into her pocket. 363 01:03:54,000 --> 01:03:56,082 And we walk on, for long. 364 01:03:57,000 --> 01:04:02,131 She keeps her hand under my skirt all the time. 365 01:04:02,800 --> 01:04:04,564 She watches my steps. 366 01:04:06,000 --> 01:04:09,846 She listens to the noise my thighs make as they rub against each other. 367 01:04:10,000 --> 01:04:13,209 She sticks her index finger between them. 368 01:06:08,000 --> 01:06:13,769 I'm a tangle of moss floating in greenish blue water. I'm saturated with flavours, 369 01:06:14,000 --> 01:06:20,007 and I'm frightened, then triumphant, and finally coagulated as churned butter. 370 01:06:20,400 --> 01:06:22,926 I notice that my body changes. 371 01:06:23,200 --> 01:06:25,680 My hair is softer, its black mellows into auburn, 372 01:06:25,800 --> 01:06:28,929 my lips of love lose some of their rosy hue, my buttocks become softer. 373 01:06:29,080 --> 01:06:30,809 This is one side of the matter. 374 01:06:30,880 --> 01:06:34,282 On the other side, my legs are long, my thighs elegantly shaped, my lips full, 375 01:06:34,360 --> 01:06:35,600 my belly and bosom silky. 376 01:06:35,680 --> 01:06:40,368 This makes up for the ten years I lose on the other side. 377 01:06:43,000 --> 01:06:48,723 A deer springs up behind the bush. 378 01:06:52,000 --> 01:06:54,606 Its eyes are like human eyes. 379 01:06:55,800 --> 01:07:00,800 I'm calling it to me. The deer is very cautious, it doesn't trust me just as I don't trust it. 380 01:07:11,000 --> 01:07:16,530 I start crying. The deer takes pity on me. 381 01:07:18,000 --> 01:07:25,691 Comes up, presses its warm nose against my body. Or is its nose cold? 382 01:07:26,400 --> 01:07:29,643 I love you, I tell the gentle creature. 383 01:07:30,000 --> 01:07:37,327 Silence ensues and in the whistle of acacia leaves the deer says, 384 01:07:37,480 --> 01:07:44,409 in a voice of glum seriousness: You have only one body! 385 01:08:32,000 --> 01:08:35,402 On the twenty-third day of July, 386 01:08:35,600 --> 01:08:44,202 in the small hours of the morning the candle of my life was nearly snuffed. 387 01:08:45,000 --> 01:08:53,090 My lord and husband, Master Mérton Kéri's self-propelled witch-cart speeded up and 388 01:08:53,400 --> 01:08:58,400 crashed into a huge oak, sending me flying like a bird, then falling like a weighty rock. 389 01:09:04,000 --> 01:09:06,526 He survived the accident unscathed. 390 01:09:11,800 --> 01:09:17,204 He came to, then took me up and carried my listless body to where other people 391 01:09:17,280 --> 01:09:19,806 could give him help. 392 01:09:20,800 --> 01:09:29,447 Thank God, I was lucky enough: they brought me back to life in the hospital. 393 01:09:30,400 --> 01:09:35,406 But they had to take off both of my legs. 394 01:09:38,000 --> 01:09:42,801 Since then l've been confined to a chair with four little wheels. 395 01:11:50,360 --> 01:11:51,361 Why? 396 01:12:03,800 --> 01:12:09,011 Don't waste your time with me. I like boys, dear, that's why. 397 01:12:23,000 --> 01:12:25,651 Say something, please. Say something. 398 01:12:25,800 --> 01:12:28,531 You fucking, no good, whore! 399 01:12:33,000 --> 01:12:35,765 What are you laughing at now'? Eh? 400 01:12:36,000 --> 01:12:43,521 Why are you laughing? Stop it, will you'? Stop laughing! 401 01:12:45,000 --> 01:12:49,608 Exploded poppies in my mouth. VWnter blooms out of summer. 402 01:12:50,600 --> 01:12:55,527 My face is black. Coldness oozes into the woods. 403 01:12:55,800 --> 01:12:59,202 Dusty shadow on snow. My crotch is black. 404 01:13:00,600 --> 01:13:05,367 Smell of petrol: a slap across your face. I pulsate, a field of wheat. 405 01:13:05,800 --> 01:13:09,407 My man is black. My arms wide open. 406 01:13:10,600 --> 01:13:14,127 A cross, mud, a lump of earth. The sky is underneath. 407 01:13:15,000 --> 01:13:16,604 My solace is black. 408 01:14:18,000 --> 01:14:26,761 He herded me out of his life. But nobody can do that to me! To give him an excuse: 409 01:14:27,000 --> 01:14:32,609 I would have never thought anybody could leave me. Me. 410 01:14:32,800 --> 01:14:39,604 Who was the plenitude of love incarnate. And of course he knows this full well. 411 01:14:40,000 --> 01:14:46,406 I don't ask him to leave his family. I don't ask him to fall out of love with his wife. 412 01:14:47,000 --> 01:14:53,804 I ask for nothing except him. Everything could be as you want everything to be. 413 01:14:55,000 --> 01:14:59,244 I'm even willing to share you with others. Who would wish for more than that'? 414 01:15:14,520 --> 01:15:16,602 Good morning! 415 01:15:18,400 --> 01:15:21,210 VWII you take me downstairs, Naxos'? 416 01:15:24,440 --> 01:15:27,091 I get dressed and then we can go. 417 01:16:00,600 --> 01:16:07,290 Want me to fetch...'? To fetch a towel? Do you'? And a drop of the hard stuff'? 418 01:16:08,800 --> 01:16:17,561 And you want me to take you downstairs for a walk? Good, l'll take you downstairs. 419 01:16:39,800 --> 01:16:40,289 Cheers! 420 01:16:46,000 --> 01:16:48,890 A mains pipe is burst on the second floor. 421 01:16:49,400 --> 01:16:50,731 Hey, Naxos, get moving! 422 01:16:50,880 --> 01:16:52,484 Why the hurry'? ls it so urgent? 423 01:16:52,560 --> 01:16:54,801 Yes, it is. Leave everything there and come to me! 424 01:16:54,880 --> 01:16:58,805 Stop giving me instructions, will you? After all, l'll have to pack everything. 425 01:17:10,400 --> 01:17:12,323 Go back to your flat. To your wife. 426 01:17:12,400 --> 01:17:15,404 I know she doesn't like you pushing my wheelchair about. 427 01:17:15,480 --> 01:17:20,008 The burst mains, you know. I'll be back... in an hour. Okay? 428 01:18:10,000 --> 01:18:16,804 I want to marry Mérton Kéri. And I want to marry myself. 429 01:18:18,000 --> 01:18:22,210 And I want to marry my mother and, at long last, my father. 430 01:18:22,280 --> 01:18:28,686 Because I want to come into the possession of a little happines in some way or another and 431 01:18:28,760 --> 01:18:32,526 attain heavenly succour by holy matrimony... 432 01:18:34,000 --> 01:18:42,522 Oh, father! Give me a straight answer, say yes or no! I'm stranded. 433 01:18:42,800 --> 01:18:45,406 I need advice and help! 434 01:18:46,000 --> 01:18:51,882 L've been asking you for such a long time, and you've been promising an answer for 435 01:18:52,000 --> 01:19:00,124 such a long time... I want to know: does the life I live please God? Speak to me! 436 01:19:01,000 --> 01:19:03,128 Why don't you love me, my sweet little Lili'? 437 01:19:15,400 --> 01:19:19,803 We went to a pig-killing feast, my father and myself... 438 01:19:20,600 --> 01:19:27,609 I stuck my hand into the opened belly of the pig, among the steaming, wriggling, warm bowels... 439 01:19:28,000 --> 01:19:35,805 They had to drag me away from the carcass. Warm bowels are good, they are like Brazil. 440 01:19:39,000 --> 01:19:46,282 My life is a messy tangle. It is a cowardly life. It is not governed by the vulnerability of love. 441 01:19:47,000 --> 01:19:49,685 A life of comfortable duplicity. 442 01:19:51,000 --> 01:19:54,800 I'm a scheming, lecherous nun. 443 01:19:57,800 --> 01:20:01,407 Love? Good. But what is love anyway? 444 01:20:02,080 --> 01:20:03,684 Another convention. 445 01:20:04,000 --> 01:20:08,608 I destroy things wherever I tread. I destroy under the seal of love. 446 01:20:09,200 --> 01:20:12,044 Who else do we love except ourselves? 447 01:20:12,400 --> 01:20:18,726 I'm casting about for excuses, a shrivelled old ham actor, that's what I am. Father dear! 448 01:20:18,800 --> 01:20:23,488 I will not be lax in consummating my love for you with due obedience! 449 01:20:47,400 --> 01:20:51,610 Try to understand it! It's over. 450 01:20:52,400 --> 01:20:53,811 Never!